Well what do you know. I'm a weak failure. Ha, I wish I could stop the self pity but i guess not. So, I've realized there are a lot of skinny people in my school who also play sports in other words they are perfect. Seems like I'm becoming more lazy and fat! While everyone is getting pretty and skinny including the teachers I'm getting fat! I'm not sure what to do, I weighed myself today and I'm back where I started. It seems like my mind is somewhere else and not on the fact that I'm not supposed to be eating until after ive ate. I hate this. I seriously need to get myself together. Losing weight has never never hurt anyone. Sad thing is seeing people who play the same sports as me aren't huge. Therefore it's possible to be perfect I just need to find it in myself and fast before school starts. It isn't very hard. I was thinking about doing a no/low carb diet. Yeah, I know the effects but I don't care right now. Anything is possible. My main issue is finding the motivation to exercise on the side again after practices and diet! I'm so anxious and I have so many thoughts racing through my head that I can't write/type them all down, which is frustrating! Anyways, I WILL lose weight, I WILL lose 20+lbs! It starts today!
-T
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