Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone! I know I'm a little late, sorry. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas! I hate to change the mood, but my Christmas (invovling food) was.....eeeeh! I know I've gained sooo much, I'm now even more afraid to look at the scale or even measure myself::/ I looked in the mirror today, like actually looked, and bam! It hit me! I realized who I have become. A digusting, ugly, person! I look horrible, I'm embarrassed to even wear "normal" clothes. I guess I'm sticking to my sweatpants, shorts, and huge t-shirts for awhile. To make matters worse though, I have a photoshoot coming in January!!! FREAKED OUT!! I don't know how I'm going to lose the lbs!! I'm excited very much though for the New Year. New Year, New Me, isn't that what it's like every year. I do have a proposition to start dieting/restriciting again, I don't know how it's going to combine with basketball, but we'll make it work. Oh well, I will be back, I hope, till next time...
xoxo
-T