It's 2:02am. I've never felt like this; well I haven't felt like this in awhile. All those feelings, and thoughts are coming back. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I don't really know what to say, or if there really was anything to say in the first place. I've realized that I've made one of the hugest mistakes in my life and that was trusting people again.... I hate it! Never again will I trust someone, or will I change my mind?? I know not trusting anyone is the best decision, but why will it be so hard when it comes to terms?? I've once again gotten attached to someone, trusted them, and let them become a "role-model/mother figure" in my life and then BAM!!They practically betrayed me, blew me off, whateverr you want to call it..eventually she's leaving...I just know it!!....I'm hurt...It hurts....I'm lost and alone...againn...but I think I like it this way....
xoxo
-T
I feel exactly the same.
ReplyDeleteI used to be scared when I was alone.
but now I like pain. I enjoy it.
Keep going.
xx