I'm pretty embarrassed; I haven't blogged in forever! I just logged into my "blogspot" for the first time in over six months, wow! For those of you who care, there hasn't really been any "progress" in my life. I seem to always find a way to "screw something up." I've returned to some old habits, unhealthy habits. I can't say I'm ashamed, but at the same time I am. Don't you hate it when you know you doing/thinking "bad" things, when you're supposed to be "positive", not sure if that made sense...Anyhow, lately, I've been stressed out, different reason, they're probably not as important to any of you as they are to me. Guess that's typical. I've been having my emotional "roller coaster" rides... One day I'm sure happy, spastic, then the next I'm just kinda "me" and then one day I might just be utterly "depressed" or angry....mmm, oh and I can't forget about that "numb" feeling. Guess you could say that's what I'm feeling now, I'm just "here"..not really "feeling" anything. I don't know, it's hard to explain, guess I should go back to seeing my "crazy doctor" again?.... I started cutting, for different reasons. Oh yeah, I used to cut, for some of you who don't know...., anyways....but now, I'm doing it to "feel" something....I don't its, "insane?" the way my mind thinks... Not really sure what this "blog" was about, it's not like it was really important to anyone...Just needed to "write" something down...I thought maybe it'd help, guess it didn't.. Take care!
xoxo
-T
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